A New Year. New Hopes. New Chances.

Everyday I am amazed by the everyday life I have been chosen to live. Many women like myself have been fighting the fight of cancer like a Mom, like only a Mom could. It's not the fears for ourselves, it's the fears we have for our children.

2010 is a year I look forward to. 2009 brought so many changes to our entire world. I'm looking forward to a sense of stability. I say that almost with a chuckle because as a three time cancer survivor who has ended up with cardiomyopathy and congestive heart failure, I'm not sure if I would know stability if it hit me in the face!

It's funny. I look at myself and sometimes I don't understand who I am. My joints ache. I get exhausted easier. Yet my hopes and dreams are bigger an stronger than ever.

Every day I live my life the best I can. I have re prioritized my to do list a long time ago. My house is not always picked up. My to do list often gets tossed aside to walk through Dana Point Harbor with my husband, to pick my daughter Taylor up early and go get junk food, to do the things that mean the most to me.

I love the moments I get to talk to my "Moms" to share my experiences with them and let them know that they too will feel like crap, but it can be done. I feel their pain when they share their feelings of uncertainty. I have witnessed many miracles this past year. I have also lost women who have forever changed my life.

I'm not sure where this blog will take us, but hopefully we can learn that being happy is a choice. Not an easy choice, but a choice that can be attained.

Much Love...